[REQUEST] 凋叶棕 – ―巳の三つ―「疵とマントと〇〇心」


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【Requested by B016

凋叶棕 – ―巳の三つ―「疵とマントと〇〇心」

あんたはなんにもしらない
なんにもなんにもしらない

anta wa nannimo shiranai
nannimo nannimo shiranai

You don’t know anything
You know nothing, nothing I say

世界をどれほど知っているのか考えてみても

sekai o dore hodo shitteiru no ka kangaete mite mo

Even if you try to think about how much you know about this world

けして及びもつかない
てんでおはなしにもならない

keshite oyobi mo tsukanai
ten de ohanashi ni mo naranai

It’s something you’ll never grasp
There’s not a chance in heavens you will

人に混じって生きるモノの数多ささえも

hito ni majitte ikiru mono no kazuoosa sae mo

And neither those multitudes living among humans will

それでも誰かと
ともに生きることなどない
孤高にして孤独
それが誇らしき在り方

soredemo dareka to
tomo ni ikiru koto nado nai
kokou ni shite kodoku
sore ga hokorashiki arikata

Yet still you haven’t lived
Together with someone else at all
By your proudly indipendent loneliness
That’s such a haughty way to be

だのに
どいつもこいつも全部目障りなのよ すごく!
そんな眼をしながらこっちを見ないでよ

da no ni
doitsu mo koitsu mo zenbu mezawari na no yo sugoku!
sonna me o shinagara kocchi o minaide yo

Yet still
Everybody is just an eyesore, for real!
Don’t just stare this way with that kind of look

痺れるような視線を浴びるたび
ああ!この疵の痛み『体中』を

shibireru you na shisen o abiru tabi
aa! kono kizu no itami kubi kara shita o

Each time I’m soaked in this seemingly trembling gaze
Ahh! I can feel the pain of this wound all the way down my neck

ぐるぐるぐるぐるまわっていく。

guruguruguruguru mawatteiku.

Spinning round and round and round in circles.

どいつもこいつもだらしない
とにかくみんなふがいない

doitsu mo koitsu mo dara shinai
tonikaku minna fugainai

Everyone’s too careless
In any case, everyone’s worthless

お祭りごとに現を抜かす愚昧愚民どもは

omatsuri goto ni utsutsu o nukasu gumai gumin domo wa

All these absurdly ignorant people straying away from reality on each occasion

大きなものがみえてない
大事なことをわかってない

ookina mono ga mietenai
daiji na koto o wakatte nai

Aren’t looking at the big things
And can’t understand what’s important

あんたたちの隣人をこそ恐れるべきだと

antatachi no rinjin o koso osoreru beki da to

You all should be afraid of those next to you as they told you

外套に隠してる
この恐怖の全て
知って恐れをなせと
睨みを利かせているのに

manto ni kakushiteru
kono kyoufu no subete
shitte osore o nase to
nirami o kikaseteiru no ni

All this fear
I’m hiding beneath my mantle –
I know, I’m afraid it’s there
Even though I’m displaying my glare

だのに
どいつもこいつも全部鈍感なのよ すごく!
そんな眼の色で遠巻きに見ているだけ

da no ni
doitsu mo koitsu mo zenbu donkan na no yo sugoku!
sonna me no iro de toomaki ni miteiru dake

Yet still
Everybody is just so dull, for real!
They’re just staring at me from a distance with their colored eyes

それでもなぜかその眼を意識するたび
ああ!何かを期待させるような予感

soredemo naze ka sono me o ishikisuru tabi
aa! nanika o kitai saseru you na yokan

And yet, for some reason, each time I become aware of those eyes
Aah! I feel like a premonition of expectation for something…

うずうずうずうずうずいていく。

uzuuzuuzuuzuuzuiteiku.

Growing impatient more and more and more and more.

柳の下で 独り佇むの
増長するものども 群衆の中で

yanagi no shita de hitori tatazumu no
zouchou suru mono domo gunshuu no naka de

I’m standing still, alone under the willows
In the midst of crowds of arrogants

外套の下に 隠されたものが
なんなのか誰も 知ろうとしないまま

manto no shita ni kakusareta mono ga
nanna no ka daremo shirou to shinai mama

And still, no one is trying to figure out
Nothing that’s hidden beneath my mantle

きっとどこかしらで
求めているのか
大胆さと踏み込む契機
ひっかかりながらもこの場所でずっと

kitto doko kashira de
motometeiru no ka
daitansa to fumi komu keiki
hikkakari nagara mo kono basho de zutto

I’m sure that somewhere
I’m seeking for it
For a chance to step into it, audaciously,
In this place, all the way, while making connections

だ・の・に!
どいつもこいつも全部意気地なしなのよ すごく!
この私にもうここまでさせておいて

da・no・ni!
doitsu mo koitsu mo zenbu ikuji nashi na no yo sugoku!
kono watashi ni mou koko made sasete oite

And ・ Yet ・ Still!
Everybody is just so spineless, for real!
They just made me the way I’ve become to this point

外套の下の疵の疼きが止められないまま
恐怖と自尊心の狭間で
ぐらぐらぐらぐらぐらぐらぐらぐら揺れている

manto no shita no kizu no uzuki ga tomerarenai mama
kyoufu to puraido no hazama de
guraguraguraguraguraguraguragura yureteiru

As the ache from the wound under my mantle won’t stop,
In the threshold between fear and pride
Everything sways, shaking and shaking, so unsteady

Notes:

– Seventh stanza: 体中 (karadajuu, “the whole body”) is read as “kubi kara shita” (首から下), meaning “down from my neck”. The meaning is the same, I guess.
– 外套 “gantou” (“mantle”) is read as “manto” (マント “mantle”) each time it appears on this song.
– Last stanza: not sure about 自尊心 (“jisonshin”) reading, but I think it says “puraido” (プライド, “pride” in english), which is also close to the japanese word.

Title: 疵とマントと〇〇心 (Wound, Cloak and 〇〇-hearted)
Circle: 凋叶棕 (Diao Ye Zong)
Album: 随 (manima) (Compliance)
Vocals: めらみぽっぷ (Meramipop)
Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Arrangement: RD-Sounds
Release Event: Reitaisai 14
Source: 柳の下のデュラハン (Dullahan Under the Willows) Double Dealing Character, Sekibanki’s Theme

[REQUEST] SILENT DIFFERENCE – 崩壊の虚像


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【Requested by Lunomin

SILENT DIFFERENCE – 崩壊の虚像

残響に流し込まれた憎悪
引き金から生まれる神話
信仰を試す亡者のワルツ
何を意味する胸の痛み

zankyou ni nagashi komareta zouo
hikigane kara umareru shinwa
shinkou o tamesu mouja no warutsu
nani o imi suru mune no itami

This hatred washed down into the echo
Is the myth born from a gunlock,
A waltz for the dead, testing their faith –
An anguish trying to hold a meaning

遮るの定義の破滅に切り裂かれた表情
苦しみの片隅で波打つ快感に満たされた症状

saegiru no teigi no hametsu ni kiri sakareta hyoujou
kurushimi no katasumi de namiutsu kaikan ni mitasareta shoujou

This expression tore in pieces by the destruction of the concept of obstruction
Is a symptom of fulfilling that pleasant feeling of dashing against the corner of pain

正気を感じぬ妄想
ドタマイカれた俺はサイコパス
石膏の偽骸から覗く
しゃぶり尽くされた至福の塔

shouki o kanjinu mousou
dotamaikareta ore wa saikopasu
sekkou no nise-mukuro kara nozoku
shaburi tsukusareta shifuku no tou

No sanity is felt in such delusion,
I am a psychopath
Peeping inside a fake corpse made of plaster
I saw the tower of bliss being chewed on

冷血に悪魔は笑う
群れる常識 猿の宴

reiketsu ni akuma wa warau
mureru joushiki saru no utage

Demons are smiling cold bloodedly
My common sense crowded like feasting primates

舞い散る耽美な貞操観念
逆十字の因果人
豚小屋から始まる
血を血で洗う盲目の愉悦

maichiru tanbina teisou kan’nen
gyaku juuji no ingajin
butagoya kara hajimaru
chi o chi de arau moumoku no yuetsu

My aesthetical sense of virtue slowly scatters down
I’m bound to such karma, on an upside-down cross
It began from a pigsty
This blind joy of washing away blood with other blood

煩悩蠢く規律の箱庭
挽歌で飾る正義論
死んだまま生かされて眠る
愚直なまでに木霊する願望

bon’nou ugomeku kiritsu no hakoniwa
banka de kazaru seigi-ron
shinda mama ikasarete nemuru
guchokuna made ni kodama suru ganbou

Klesha – gardens of crawling regulations
Theories of righteousness decorated by elegies
Brought back to life, asleep, from a state of death
With a desires echoing to the point it becomes stupidly true

隣人から奪われた思想
泥舟で渡る未来に明日を請う

rinjin kara ubawareta shisou
dorobune de wataru mirai ni asu o kou

My thoughts are stolen by those near me
Begging for a future I could cross with a mud boat

一瞬の過ちが
愛するもの全てを無に還す

isshun no ayamachi ga
aisuru mono subete o mu ni kaesu

The error of an instant
Returned everyone I loved into nothingness

崩れ落ちる瓦礫の花
忘却の果てに沈む太陽
立ち直れる頃には
誰も名前すら覚えていない

kuzure ochiru gareki no hana
boukyaku no hate ni shizumu taiyou
tachi naoreru koro ni wa
daremo namae sura oboeteinai

By the time
The crumbling down flower made of debris
Recovers under the Sun sinking down at the end of oblivion
It couldn’t remember not even a single name of anyone

沈黙を嫌う理想
狂える闇 嗚咽と今

chinmoku o kirau risou
kurueru yami oetsu to ima

My ideals hating on silence
Now – it weeps – a maddening darkness

女神の手が
産み出す朝は
理性を舌でなぞり絡ませ溶かす

megami no te ga
umidasu asa wa
risei o shita de nazori karamase tokasu

The hand of the goddess
And the morning she gave life to
Entwining and dissolving, her tongue tracing my reasons

I never want your tolerance.
I don’t believe you anymore.

女神の手が
産み出す愛に
吊るされ
滴る血でグラスを注ぐ

megami no te ga
umidasu ai ni
tsurusare
shitataru chi de gurasu o sosogu

Over the hanged
Love
Given birth by the hand of the goddess
Its dripping blood filling up a glass

異臭まみれの
動かぬ造形
瞼は閉じずに
剥き出しのまま…

ishuu mamire no
ugokanu zoukei
mabuta wa tojizu ni
mukidashi no mama…

The unmoving molding
Drenched in a foul smell
Stays bare, still
Without closing its eyelids…

Notes:

– Third stanza: ドタマイカ (dotamaika-(reta)) is a word I have no idea what means. I haven’t heard it before, couldn’t find anything online / dictionaries. The verb appears in katakana, the Japanese “alphabet” for writing foreign words as well as marking some words just like our CAPS LOCK does. The part “reta” coming after it makes it like a verb, and if we take “ore” (“me”, “I”) coming after it, it’s like it says “The me who was [dotamaika]”. So, we know the function of this word, but not its meaning. Being its function merely adjectival, the remaining sections don’t suffer much change. So I’m simply leaving the word out of my translation, but if anyone has some kind of idea about what that word could mean, please leave a comment! It’ll help a lot.
– Sixth stanza: Klesha (煩悩) is buddhist concept involving polluting and dark thoughts such as hatred, envy, delusion or greed taking over someone’s mind and causing them to suffer.

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Title: 崩壊の虚像 (hametsu no kyozou) (virtual image of ruin)
Circle: SILENT DIFFERENCE
Album: BELIAL
Vocals: しるへい (shiruhei)
Lyrics: しるへい (shiruhei)
Arrangement: しるへい (shiruhei)
Release Event: C82
Source: リジッドパラダイス (Rigid Paradise), Ten Desires, Yoshika Miyako’s Theme